A quick note on Twilight:

I'm planning to read it. I don't know a thing about it, other than the opinions I've heard (and the unnecessary amount of buttons regarding it available via FaceBook's "Pieces of Flair" application). And I don't generally judge any book, no matter what the genre or subject matter, before reading it; the same way I don't generally judge any television show, anime, or movie before watching it or any food before tasting it. But I do know that I am going to read it, and probably in the near future.

My reason for this is simple:

Shawna recommended it to me. In fact, I have her copy, which she loaned me over Christmas, currently sitting on my bookshelf.

That's reason enough for me to give it a try.♥

Tags: books, hikari, hikari-no-ryu, shawna, twilight
Current Location: Home - My Room
Current Mood: nostalgic
Current Music: Namie Amuro - Come

( Haet. )

"Crunch time" makes me want to punch a baby.



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Also the "music" is actually what's playing in my on-shuffle WMP right now. Lulz.

Tags: college, final projects, gilly, hikari, illness, laundry, packing, painting i, phone, pissed, rage, rant, scott, sculpture i, shawna, sick, tom, weirdness
Current Location: Goucher - Dorm Room
Current Mood: aggravated
Current Music: Saliva - Survival of the Sickest

Okay guys.

I'm just gonna say this and make it easier on myself and everyone who wants to contact me, because it's just a little... weird to get messaged randomly/normally considering what's going on.

Some of you have heard me mention a girl by the name of Shawna, whom I also call my Hikari, and who's on deviantART as Hikari-no-Ryu. She's a sweet girl whom I love to pieces. She's the nicest, most wonderful and compassionate human being I have ever met in my entire life. (She also happens to be a dragon therian. We always blamed that for the issues she had with electronics... breaking randomly without her touching them when she was angry, heh.)

She was in a car accident, yesterday around five o'clock in the afternoon.

Weather where I grew up is always hateful in winter. Always. Most of us are used to it, but that doesn't make it any easier.

Her car slid on the ice. She was struck by an oncoming car on her driver's side door.

She died at the scene.

She was one of my best friends, and I love her so, so much. So much more than words can ever, ever describe.

I don't know when the funeral is. I'm staying here tonight, and because of assignments, I might not make it home until the day before the funeral. It sucks, but it's how it is.

I... you guys know me. I take a practical stance on everything. I'm not over it by any means, not by a long shot, and I'm not sure I'll ever be really "over it." I don't think I want to be over it. But I'm coping. I cope quickly. Especially when I'm able to vent, and I cried damn well and good this morning.

I know she's gone. I know she can't come back. I know that life sucks, life is not fair, but life goes on. It may seem a little callous of me, but. Everyone grieves differently. This is going to sound tacky, but hey, I'm a sap. I would rather grieve with love than tears.

I love you guys. All of you on my friends list? You're on it because I love you. More than words can ever, ever say. And I feel like I don't say even that enough.

So if I seem distant, or aloof, or a little overly clingy in the coming.... however long. Bear with me, okay? And if I act like nothing's wrong, don't label me an ass, because I'm not trying to forget her. I'm trying to be happy. She always, always hated it when her friends were unhappy, and did her level fucking best to comfort and console. She would hate us all to cry forever. I want to honor her by trying to be as happy as she always was.

And if I could ask one thing from everyone... just... say her name, won't you? I believe she's in Summerland now, and I want her to know there are people who love her, and that even friends of her friends can care, just for a second, just long enough to say her name--not even aloud. Just... think it. I know some people light candles, or put people in their prayers, or what-have-you. If that's something that you do, and you want to do it for her... thank you.

But even if you're not the kind of person to do that sort of thing.

Just say... think her name. One tiny gesture will mean the world to her.

Shawna Stallman.

Hikari-no-Ryu.

My hikari.

The song of choice is a tribute to her. She loved Death Cab for Cutie, and this song, I think, goes some small way toward doing her justice. I'd like to think it's almost as beautiful as her. I got her the Plans album for Christmas. It makes me glad she got to hear it.

( Lyrics beneath the cut. )

I love you, honey.

<3

Tags: february 29th, hikari, hikari-no-ryu, love, shawna
Current Location: Goucher - Dorm Room
Current Mood: holding on and letting go
Current Music: Death Cab for Cutie - Soul Meets Body